How many times can the same heart break?
Is there one time to many?
One time that it breaks into so many pieces
It turns to ashes
Will it stop hurting then?
Will I become numb at least?
Every time I cry a bit more
Soon there will be no tears left
Maybe that’s the day…
When I will find peace at last
When what I did will stop hurting so much
Or should I just go away
Stop torturing myself each day
Stop trying to make right what I made so wrong
Should I walk away….
Knowing I lost a friend I treasured so much
Is there an end to this pain?
Is there a way to make it stop?
Would even death end the pain my soul feels?
Or will this pain carry through to the next life?
There is only pain
I see no end in sight for it to stop
Not in this life or any other
Pain brought by angry words
Words that to this day I can not believe
That I spoke in such anger
With such thoughtlessness
How to heal….
Not my heart but the wound I caused to you
I deserve this pain,
I just don’t know that I can survive it
You did not deserve the words I spoke
Like a shotgun I fired
And hit a friend that always protected me
But in the end I am the one that bleeds
For with everyday that passes
My heart bleeds a little more
With every day that passes
I die a little more
Please let it end
Let it all stop
I have not the strength
To carry on like this
Written: January 27, 2005
