To say that the past 48 hours have been painful and difficult in insufficient.
To start with the terrible events of Monday happening in my hometown. I may have left there years ago but my heart will always hold Boston as my home. To see the bombing of the iconic Boston Marathon, the horrible injuries, the deaths (which thankfully thus far has been low), the stripping of another layer of innocence. ALl of that has been tearing at my heart. But this was followed by more news that hit much closer to home yesterday morning…
I received a text from one of my oldest friends here in California (yeah I called you that) while I was on the way to the day gig… his son who would have turned 21 this year had suffered a heart attack and passed away. I’ve been at a loss for words, what do you tell a father in such a situation besides… “I am here if you need me.” To the young woman that I consider a niece, “I am here if you need me hun, you aren’t alone.” To his grandmother and his uncle, “my deepest condolences.” But beyond that there is nothing, just aching tears for the pain my friend and his family are enduring at this loss.
To Tommy, am just glad that in the past few months your posts on here seemed so happy, you were doing so well with school and looking forward to the birth of your child, you lived a lifetime in the short years you had and am glad to have met you even though it was only a few times. You made your dad smile (and probably a few of his gray hairs have your name attached LOL ) and you helped your sis through some difficult times and for that you will live on in my heart.
Universe, do me a favor if you would, please no more this week, emotionally I think I am done. I have no more to give and don’t know if I can be strong for those in my life that need it if you through one more emotional curveball at me.
